New feature…Formspring me!

So, I tried this awhile back on my now defunct personal blog and no one ever asked me anything. I deemed it stupid and pointless and deleted it and never reconsidered doing it again. Skip ahead a year or so, I haven’t been writing or reading, I have reached the end of the internet and I’m bored… as well, maybe SOMEONE out there has a question… or something?

Anyway, I decided to set up the ole formspring again. If anyone has any questions, comments, ideas, observations to share, please be sure to pop them in that box and send them right on up! I guess…. I will consider a request for writing, like a drabble or a writing exercise. I’m not great at writing on command but sometimes a good idea sparks from something someone said or suggested, so I’m open to it.

Smoke ‘em if ya got ‘em! Wait… that’s not right. Ask ‘em if ya got ‘em. There we go.

Hope everyone is having a great week. Is this not the slowest short week ever? Is tomorrow really Friday? I’m scared I’ll wake up and it’ll only be Wednesday.

PS. Have you ever been to Pinterest? Holy crap, it’s my new obsession!

Had a bad day.

So, I had a bad night last night. Very, very bad. Like, sitting in bed staring at the laptop, sniffling and sobbing, teary twitter updates bad night. And it was all my project’s fault.

See, here is the thing. I’m a writer. I have finally admitted to myself that I do this thing called writing. And now that I am well aware that I am a writer, I am looking past just “writing”. Now what I want is to AUTHOR.

I want to write a book. Not a book that I finish and smile at and put away. Not a book that is so amateur that I have to self publish because YE GODZ, lady, no one is going to publish that drivel. I want to author a book and then edit the crap out of it and rewrite it and edit the crap out of THAT and send it to 184 agents and have ONE say “yeah I think we can make this work” and have that agent send it to 45 publishing companies and have one of THEM say, “Yeah, we definitely want to publish this” and have my book be available at frikken Barnes & Noble where my mother– who lives on the other side of the country– can go visit a bookstore with her best girlfriend and stand there and stare at it and cry in the middle of the store and be all proud and stuff.

That.

I want that.

But the thing is? I’m not really sure I have that kind of talent. Continue reading

Back to the Grind, yo.

I don’t know where that yo came from. I just suddenly feel like Marky Mark.

Trying to stay on track/ ahead of my 1000 words/ day posting schedule. This is what keeps me on track for the year. I don’t aim for 1000 words and then stop, but I don’t stop until I hit 1000 words. Sometimes, like tonight, I go a bit over if inspiration strikes.

Inspiration didn’t take me too far over 1000 tonight. I managed to get in 1,124 before it started to drone on and get boring. I’m going to break for a bit and if I feel like moving on tonight I will. Chances are that I will edit it down to below 1000, though. Always happens. I write everything and then delete half of it!

Otherwise I’ve found a good spot to stop. I need to pace this chapter well. I have a lot I want to cover and I can’t stroll slowly through it. I also have some conversations that need to happen on this trip, because that pushes this story forward significantly. This trip is very important in the lives of my characters so I want to do it right. I just don’t want to spend 30 pages doing it.

I’m also reading, actually a few books at a time. I get bored with one and pick up another where I left off. I wish I could be so ambidextrous with my writing!

A new (old) approach to writing

Some of my readers know me from the world of fanfiction. I write RPF, pretty much the same person in every story, which may mean my fanfiction days are coming to a screeching halt because if it’s one thing I hate, it’s the same story over and over again. But maybe a series……….. anyway.

The archive that I use to host my stories (and a lot of archives use) is efiction. It makes it easier to track and post chapter stories and even categorize your works. There’s a limit to how many characters you can post in one chapter. On mine I think it’s like… 50,000 characters or something like that. Elsewhere, the limit is lower, which translates to about 10,000 words, give or take.

Now, to some 10,000 words is an entire story. For me, for a serial story, it’s a mere chapter. I know, I write a lot. I’m wordy. It’s a blessing and a curse. I’ve found myself, over the course of telling this tale, tailoring my words to the word limit instead of letting the story tell itself. This amounts to undue pressure and stress and breaking the story up into chunks that don’t really seem to gel, if you read it all at once. It comes through like vignettes and not a complete story, something I may or may not fix once I finish it.

So my new approach is to just write. Not try to figure out what is going to happen chapter by chapter. I’m just writing. I’ll split it up into chunks later, edit so that they string together nicely, but I’m just going to write, write, write until it’s done.  There is the small matter of reviews (feedback) that come with posting a new chapter. They are quite encouraging and it’s nice to know I’m being read. I’m not sure how I’ll make it without them but I’ll find a way, I’m sure. Maybe once I get stuck on a certain part I will start posting chapters, much like I did with Same Time Next Week, where I didn’t start posting chapters until week 3 of NaNoWriMo.  Who knows??? I just know I’m going to try not to stress about it, and just write for the enjoyment of writing.

I so miss that, from the early days, rushing home to open Word and pound out a few thousand words.  Fan fiction used to be my practice. Writing used to be fun.  Time to get back to that, pull my head out of my…behind…. and write.

I’m also remembering that I had set a goal this year to write something new, some shorter stories. I’ve written two, I think– The Storm And Try to Say No (which needs to be added to my archive, I see). More, more, more I say!

Feeling renewed and inspired,