Today’s post will probably be short, mostly because I didn’t feel like writing it or posting it, but I SHOULD, so I am.
I have hit an enormous invisible brick wall in my writing. The story isn’t even writing itself in my head right now. I hit this story head on and went at it hardcore for a few weeks, and then burnt myself (and my friends, I think) out on the story. I did some writing but not enough shutting up and now I’m pretty sure people are sick of hearing about this book I am writing. And have stopped writing. I haven’t written in over a week and I don’t really feel a pull toward it. I am tired (a lot) and what I really want to do is lay in bed and watch Netflix videos or TV shows. At this rate, the book will be done around 2015, if ever.
I know, these words are ridiculous and as soon as I have emoted about my frustration, I’ll feel a strange urge to open up the WIP and write. Until then, I just have to document that I went back and read the first 5 1/2 chapters and learned that they kind of suck. I mean, I sort of knew that when I wrote them because I did that on purpose. My mantra was to just get it out on paper so I can edit it into something brilliant. Then I went back and read it and I am depressed about how bad it seems.
When I did NaNo a few years ago, I blazed right through that story. I hit 50K words in just a couple of weeks. I think I’ve hit 30K on this story and I just… MEH.
I know. I know. Just dig in and keep going and don’t give up and it’s supposed to suck. Writing is editing, right? And okay it doesn’t suck, but I am seeing what I’ll need to do to pretty it up and I guess I am mad at myself that I can’t produce better writing, right out of the gate.
I KNOW. DUMB! Why do I still do that?
Ugh, Who knows? We writer type people are so neurotic. And I am neurotic on top of that!
Hope everyone else is having good luck and nice progress with their WIP. If you’re NOT, feel free to commiserate in the comments!
SIGH. Back to the WIP. Today.