On a horse with no name…

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I had about 5 options for naming this post… a few witty, some blatantly honest. I didn’t know which one to go with so I chose none of them. That’s kind of how things go in my life. If I can’t decide, I choose NONE of the options.  Don’t know what I want for lunch? I just don’t eat. Don’t know what color pens I want to buy? I buy none of them. I don’t think the word moderation or compromise have entries in my dictionary.

So, I’m having a problem. My problem is two fold– too much and not enough. How is that possible, you ask? Well, I’ll tell you.

As I was explaining to a friend earlier, I keep pretty busy. I may not seem busy and I may even tell you that I am boring and I do nothing but in reality I run two moderately trafficked message boards. I read and I write and and I try to keep up with twitter and blogs and facebook. I try to stay abreast important events, just in case I am asked to be on Jeopardy. I try to get out of the house every now and again, leave the county, see friends, go to brunch. I travel when I can, and recently I’ve been decorating my apartment.  That’s a lot of stuff, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Staying on top of everything and keeping a finger in each pot seems to keep me going.

But then I have so much going on that I’m overwhelmed and I feel like dropping everything and going back to being a bump on a log, picking lint out of my belly button and wishing for something to do. I get tired of staying on top of everything and being the focal point of everything. I have this blog I’d like to stay current with, and I am not. I have reading that I am SO BEHIND on, haven’t made time to dig into any books. I have two WIP’s that are, literally, going nowhere.

Every weekend I intend to recharge and get caught up on these mini tasks that grow into lots of mini tasks and become a mega task. And every weekend I end up doing…….something…..and the weekend is over and it’s Sunday night and I look at my task list and *shrug* .

Tired. I’m too tired to even dictate to myself what I am going to do and by when I am going to do it. At this point I am just hoping that when the mood strikes I will be awake enough to romance either one of myWIP’s and make me fall in love with it again because uh…………baby, the thrill is gone.

(Temporarily) Lost that lovin’ feelin’,

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  • Curvy Jones

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  • http://butterflyconfidential.com Kalanna

    sending hugs. i feel it too. i spend a great deal of time keeping things moving in our home only to later wonder what room all my time disappeared into. i’m a productivity girl. i like results. but i also treasure balance in my life. you’ll find it too.

    wait… did that sound like i’d found my own balance?

    *hysterical laughing*
    .-= Kalanna´s last blog ..Reaction to Medjugorje =-.

    • http://www.thesweetescape.net MissM

      *laughs with you, cause I know it’s likely untrue that a true balance is ever found. We just do the best we can and ride the wave, trying not to drown. Why do we do this, again?

  • http://www.journeytoblissville.blogspot.com Tex In The City
    • http://www.thesweetescape.net MissM

      Moderately. I think I’ve got Mojo Lite. I finished a chapter of the fanfiction… that was a hard chapter to write. I need to get back to my new project. I just felt all kinds of untalented and like I’m not ready to write it. *sigh*

  • http://www.journeytoblissville.blogspot.com Tex In The City

    Uh…missing you. Tweet so we know you are alive!
    .-= Tex In The City´s last blog ..Why I must learn to shut my cake hole (hmmm caaaake) =-.